It's Been a While...

but I haven't been completely idle I promise.

I have had some inspiration, and so have been writing a lot of songs.

This one is my favourite so far.

Please be aware that it is far from perfect.  I recorded it on my iPad....I really need a studio...anyone want to help out? And some session musos....all in good time.  Until them I am quite happy to get tracks laid down so that I can get feedback and make them perfect.

Enjoy

Drama, Drama, Drama

Not my drama, thank God.  I was just having a moment and thanking God that there is no drama in my life.  it exhausting you know.  it takes so much energy, but accomplishes absolutely nothing.

I look at my life, I have a good job, wonderful family and friends, and a husband that loves me...and who i'm yet to have a fight with.  No drama *looks around*  nope none hiding there.

See the problem with having drama, is that you turn into a drama queen.  You can hide it for a while, fly under the radar a bit, but when someone finds you out it's all "shock horror, not me?!"  It's true, that's how it happens.  The biggest problem is that you can only hide the "real" you for so long before everyone sees you for who you are.  And then, you lose everything.

This is the point where the drama can take over, you move on to a new bunch of friends who don't really know you, and spin the same crap to them that got you in trouble the first time.  Or, you can finally wake up, stop being a child, wake up to yourself and start to accept responsibility for your actions.

like I said, drama is exhausting, I'd rather not have it.

Term 1

I'm just about ready to start Term 1 2012 at uni.

Last year I only did 1 subject per term, so that's 2 down and 10 to go! This term I am going to try and do 2 subjects. Not a huge workload if all you are doing is going to uni, but I work full time as well. In saying that, I am a bit more excited about my subjects this year.

This term I am doing Research methods in Psychology, and Introduction to Human Development. I picked up my text books on Friday, all $250 worth!




....and yes I have started reading them. I figure that a head start is always a good thing.

I am actually enjoying reading about Research methods, which whilst doing my science degree was the most boring, bane of my existence type subject. The way the guy has written it has me giggling several times a page, weird I know!

I'm just excited to finally be into the more "meaty" stuff. I just hope I can handle 2 subjects a term, because that way I will be finished mid next year. But then again, that's the point where I decide if I want to do the extra year to do the full psychology, then an internship....hmmmmm, I guess I will have to see what happens in the starting a family realm.


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My Little Soapbox

I'm generally an easy going person, but something has really got my goat. Yesterday, Australia day, a day of celebration was tarnished by a senseless act of hatred. Those involved can call it a "peaceful protest" all they want, but it was hatred.

I want to make something very clear. I'm not a racist. I couldn't care less what colour your skin is. I have friends, and I work with people who are indigenous Australians. I have no problem with them and aborigines as a people.

When, however, you burn my flag, when you deliberately take words spoken out of context and twist their meaning, saying that they inspire racism and hatred. Well then I have a problem.

What really got up my nose was one of these "peaceful protestors" saying that they only want to be treated as equals.

I have a solution for you. No government handouts, no special treatment, no cheap housing, no free education. You want to be treated equally, sure thing. Work hard for every cent. Scrimp and save to get the things you want. Work hard in school to get where you want to go in life (once again I know this isn't all indigenous people, some do work very hard to make a good life for themselves). Don't stand there with you hand out for your check each week and say that white Australians are racist towards you, that we are the ones that hate, that you don't have equal rights. Too right we don't have equal rights! I would love to take some time off work knowing all the bills would be paid, that I could study for free and live in cheap housing.

You want us to be equal, fine, hand back all the hand outs and treat us like normal human beings.

And don't ever burn our flag! Yes OUR flag, our heroes went to war under to make this a free country for ALL. You can choose to have your flag because you are proud of your heritage, fine with me, but don't disrespect our national symbol of freedom.

You want us to go home? We are home, this is as much my country as yours, I was born and bred here. I love Australia. You couldn't pay me enough money in all the world to live anywhere else. And while we go home, how about you go home, because your people weren't originally from here either.

Ok rant over. I know this isn't indicative of all aboriginals, it's always the few that give the rest a bad name. We need to get over the colour of our skin or who was here first. That's generations ago, it's nothing to do with me. We are all Australians start acting like it!


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One year ago....

One year ago today I started my day with a trip to the hairdresser. When I got home there was a brunch on mascarpone cheese, strawberries and croissants, as well as a glass or two of bubbly. Next I had my makeup done. There was the hustle and bustle of others getting ready around me. A photographer arrived and set up a portable studio in the apartment my parents had rented for the event. Finally everyone was ready, the kids were behaving and the time was getting closer. We all left together in a stretch limo, my dad, the kids, the girls and myself. I was getting excited. We arrived at the venue. It was raining, only days before the floods hit. I had to wait as one by one the driver escorted the girls and kids to the door. There was no garden, it was too wet, but on the large verandah they set up a beautiful space. A friend was playing the guitar and singing "Just the way you are". David didn't turn around, he didn't know he was allowed to watch me walk towards him, but the look on his face when I got to his side was enough to convince me that I had made the right choice in choosing him for my husband. We said our vows that day, exactly one year ago. I married my best friend in a simple and quick ceremony. It was exactly what I wanted, simple ceremony with a party for everyone to celebrate with us. This year has been hard in that we moved far away from everything and everyone we knew. We started new jobs, and had to work out this "married life" thing on our own. Everything else has been easy. We love each other, we don't fight, we are on the same crazy wavelength. Happy anniversary to my wonderful husband. It has been amazing sharing my life with you this year and I can't wait for what the future may bring. I am excited for the rest of our lives, and can't wait to grow old with you my love, my heart, my best friend.

New Year

So another year has come and gone, and way too fast for my liking! I mean seriously, where on earth did 2011 go? Here we are in 2012 another year of grand adventures! David and I didn't know what to do for new years so we ended up going to see Goatman and Jules. It was a nice laid back new years, couple of drinks and channel V haha, nice and tame in keeping with my age lol. I have a new haircut to start my year, I quite like it, David doesn't, but I had to get it shorter to undo the haircut (which wasn't all that bad according to my hairdresser) that I had given myself. It will grow again, that's what hair does.

This Sunday is our one year wedding anniversary! I can't believe that a year has gone so fast! The year has been hard in that we have moved so far away from everything we know and started new jobs etc, but I look at 2011 and I am very happy how it has all worked out, David is even happy living where we are now and with a stable, full time job. Still blows my mind that we have been married for a year, sometimes I still look at my rings and I'm shocked that I'm married. I was the girl who had given up on finding someone and getting married, thinking no one would want me, and then David came into my world and he is just amazing. This year we are going to try and start a family which is extremely exciting, I can't wait to be a mum! Happy anniversary for Sunday David, I love you so much!

Very proud of myself

So as a last minuet decision David and I decided to go see some friends in Gympie for New Years. I made it very clear that I couldn't be that close to my parents without seeing them. We have had David's family up for a few weeks before Christmas, but I didn't get to see my family (first time in 29 years I haven't spent Christmas with mum and dad).

I promptly burst into tears crying that "I miss my mummy". Yes I still call her mummy, and yes I do still get homesick!

David being the loving supportive husband he is burst out laughing at me. Apparently I'm supposed to be mature at 29 and not miss my parents to the point of tears.

He then surprised me by saying that he would be ok at home without me if I wanted to stay a few extra days. Luckily flights were cheap so this afternoon we are driving to Gympie then on Sunday we will get to Brisbane. David drives home on Monday because he has to work on Tuesday, but I get to stay until Thursday and fly home! Excited!

So today I have been busy, making sure the house is clean and packing. I also made some yummy meals for David while I'm away that he can just defrost and eat. The one I'm most proud of is the risotto. I have never been very good at it, but this time I decided to try it in the slow cooker! U recommend that all risotto should be done from here on out in the slow cooker because it is amazing!

1 cup arborio rice
2 cups of water with chicken stock mixed in
1 teaspoon of minced garlic
1 chicken breast diced
1 onion sliced
1 cup of each sweet potato, potato, pumpkin and carrot cubed
1 teaspoon of butter
a sprinkling of mixed herbs and pepper to taste

Brown the chicken and onion together (it's always better if you cook the onion and brown the meat before you put it in the slow cooker.
Chuck everything in the slow cooker and cover with the chicken stock and water (I had to add a little extra water after a couple of hours).
Cook on low for 4 - 6 hours (depending on your slow cooker, mine takes about 6 hours).

This should give you 2 large servings, so David has dinner and then lunch for the next day.

He also has my very own version of pasta bake.


500g mince
1 onion
1 teaspoon minced garlic
2 cups of mixed veggies (optional)
1 tin of tomatoes or 3 diced fresh tomatoes
1 bottle of pasta sauce

2 cups pasta

Cheese sauce
2 teaspoons butter
1 heaped teaspoon flour
Salt and pepper to taste
1 teaspoon minced garlic
Milk ( you will need to judge the amount based on how thick you want the sauce, if you make it too runny just add a little more flour)
Cheese to taste

Cook mince, onion garlic, veggies and tomatoes in a fry pan and add sauce (if you like it really tomatoey add a tin on tomato soup as well!)

In a small pot melt butter add garlic salt and pepper.
Add flour, take off heat and stir.
Put back on heat and use a whisk stirring constantly as you add the milk.
Add extra milk or flour as needed until you have and nice white sauce (if I was making corned meat this would be the point I would add a slash of dry white wine for a lovely white sauce).
Add cheese to taste (David likes his really cheesy so I add about 1 1/2 cups)
Stir until cheese is melted and leave on a low heat.

Cook your pasta (I usually wiz it through the microwave for 15 mins while I make the mince and cheese sauce).

Mix mince, pasta and cheese sauce together and place in oven proof dish. Sprinkle with cheese and bake in oven until cheese on top is brown.

This gives 4 large servings and has a lasagna type taste without the hassle of layering pasta sheets sauce and cheese sauce!

I also made him honey mustard chicken with noodles, but this is totally boring as I just used a bottle of sauce on browned chicken, onion and garlic. Also threw in a clue of handfuls of mixed veggies.

Pretty sure he won't starve while I'm away, and it is much better than take-out which he would probably rather do than making something himself! He hates cooking lol.

Hope everyone has an amazing New Years! God bless for 2012!




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Mr Kookaburra

We have a couple of kookaburras that live in the gum tree out the back. I see them everyday. This morning Mr Kookaburra came to visit on my back verandah. Nice start to the day!





Just thought I'd share.

Why....Hello!

I know, I know, it's been a while, but things have been kind of hectic around here. The end of year at school is always full on. This year I haven't been quite so stressed, which has been a major blessing.

First off we moved, bad time of year to move, but so worth it! Our new house is just stunning, and coming home from work was like going on a little mini-break every night! We are all settled in, a few things to still unpack and sort through, but hey, I'm on holidays now so I have plenty of time!




This is home, sweet home! There is so much space, and light, and no mould or mildew like the old place. Not to mention the fact that this house is not falling down around us! This picture is of the lounge room. We are really very happy here!

School finishing was a blessing, but also non stressful. Most years I get sick at the end of the year because it has been so full on. I think the major difference this year has been that I have had my weekends to myself. I don't have to do any gigs, I can just chill out and recuperate. I loved doing DJing and Karaoke, but I can tell you now I do not miss the late nights, lifting heavy equipment and the drunken so-and-so's that I would have to deal with at least once a week, and sometimes more.

I'm so proud of all of my kids, one even took out the prize for the top mark in one of his subjects! And if I could talk about everything this kid is going through, you would be just as amazed and proud of him as I am!

The formal was beautiful, and so laid back! Unlike my old school, the formal was purely a time to enjoy each others company and celebrate our kids finishing school. There was no ceremony as this was done at a school assembly, just dinner and drinks with the kids and their families, as well as some funny videos the kids made to have a dig at the teachers and of course the teachers response!

Last day of work blew my mind! They way they look after staff is amazing. I'm used to using the last day to do secret Santa and clean up then we go out for dinner that night with whichever staff want to come. This year I was surprised to find that our last day consisted of being shouted lunch at this beautiful resort which was compulsory for all staff, where we gave our secret santa's their gifts and the leadership team gave each and every person a box of chocolates and 2 movie tickets! The cards the leadership team wrote were just amazing, they had me in tears, just to be encouraged like that was amazing and has made me really appreciate the school I am at and the fact that they take none of us for granted and they care as much about their staff as they do the kids.

So now I'm in my first week of holidays! Holidays I was hanging out for because this time last year we were packing, moving 7 hours away from friends and family, going back home for Christmas, New Years and our wedding, and then freaking out cause the floods meant we only got to our new home a couple of days before I started my new job, plus the added stress of hubby not having a job to come to.

I'm actually relaxing! Hubby has a full time job, I could put my Christmas decorations up this year, and there is no financial stress! God has really blessed us!




My Christmas tree, which now has some presents underneath!



I love having the lights on at night, it puts me in my happy place!




Lights on the doors out to the balcony. They make me happy too!




The most Christmassy nails I could get done!

Tomorrow mother-in-law and hubbies 2 little brothers come, followed by father-in-law closer to Christmas. It's exciting to have kids here for Christmas. The only down side is that I can't see my family over Christmas because of my dads work, and my brother, sister-in-law and nephew are going to spend Christmas in Perth. I am hoping that maybe I will get to see them early in the new year if we can get down or they can get up.

Also coming up this week is the Rockhampton Christmas Carols in the music bowl, which I get to sing at. Very excited! I have done carols before but this is a rather large event in Rocky and they go all out for it.

Well I think that has everyone up to speed. Until next time!

Is it sleep time yet?

No...really...is it?

This moving thing seriously sucks, why can't we just have Star Trek style "beam me up Scotty" technology that just transports everything, all at once (including the occupants) to the new house? Then it transports all the dust and crap that seems to accumulate over time to the dump? I personally think that would be so much easier!

In saying that I have made a good dent in things. The kitchen is packed, the games room is done (yes we have a games room....no grown ups here), and the spare room is looking slightly more respectable. But seriously, I'm over it!

We currently live in a rather old house. I'm sure it is sinking into the ground ever so slowly. I know this because every few months we have to shave a couple of millimeters off the top of the front door so that we can use it, and there are cracks in the cement under the house that you could quite rightly mistake for stairs (well maybe not THAT big, but you get the picture). Included with this prize piece of property is a busy main road with trucks frequently passing by that disrupt the TV reception (and sleep). As well as neighbors that just love a good domestic at least once a day and/or singing at the top of their lungs to whichever lame/old/country tune that seems to fancy them (this also causes lack of sleep). An added bonus that I am finding is the mildew that has popped up in the most inconvenient places, like venician blinds. No wonder hubby and I have trouble with sinus infection.

The house we are moving too is brand new and never been lived in! I'm excited about the move to this house. I would be more excited if it didn't involve packing. If anyone invents the transporter in the next few days please let me know.

Reasons I get up in the Morning

1. Well obviously it's my husband, although mostly in the mornings we just want to stay in bed (get your mind out of the gutter). I always know when he is awake because he pulls me in close and just holds me. It's the best part of my day, and the day just doesn't feel right without it. The alarm is always set that little bit earlier so we can just lay there and snuggle for a little while.

As for actually getting out of bed. Mostly it's because my husband is proud of me, the job I have and he things I have accomplished. I love that he is proud of me, it's important that he is proud of me, and it makes me proud of myself. Not that I wasn't proud before, I just never really thought about it much.

2. My kids. I have such a special bunch of kids at school. They are amazing. They aren't the brightest, most academic kids, but I'm proud of them. I have watched them grow so much over this year and gain confidence in themselves. I love to celebrate every little victory with them, and my heart breaks when they are in pain over something.

I want to be there for them. I want to see them mature into amazing men and women, and I want them to know that there is always someone who loves them and is proud of them.

3. I love life. I love everything about it. Sure it has it's ups and downs, but it wouldn't be interesting if it didn't. Life is full of more fun stuff than bad stuff even though we mostly only remember the bad. I am truly blessed in my life, I have family and friends who love me, an amazing husband, a job I love, a beautiful new house that we are moving into next week. Life is good, even when it is sometimes hard, I know I am truly blessed.

4. Facebook. I know, it's kind of "what the" but seriously, what would I do without it? I live so far away from family and friends that a little time on Facebook everyday keeps me up to date with the people I love. I love the pictures posted of my nephew so I can still watch him grow up, and I love knowing that my family and friends are safe, loved and enjoying life.



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Photography

I love photography. There is something about capturing a moment that I love. I love looking back and remembering what I was doing and where I was at any particular moment.





This was at 1770 going on a sunset cruise. One of the only places in Australia that you can watch both sunrise and sunset over the eastern ocean. Also you can watch the sunset over the water then over the land. I don't know how this works, but it is pretty cool.







This was at 1770 also. I was looking at the view and I turned around and David had gone. I must admit I did panic for a little bit but decided to walk back to the car. As I turned the corner I found him, up a rock!







My big brother's Phd graduation. Nice to see that becoming a Dr. Hasn't made him go all serious.










Rockhampton has a free zoo. It isn't big, it isn't that special, but we still enjoy going there and having a wander around if we just want to get out of the house for a bit.










I remember David calling me out to the front balcony because I just had to see the sunset. Of course I had to take some pics of him which he graciously allowed me to do...because he is so cute...I mean manly.




Mum and dad came up for a visit so we went and stayed with them over the weekend in the unit they had rented. Saw this rainbow one morning and it made me really happy.




David is very artistic himself. He is into 3D modeling on the computer. He loves to go and take photos of textures so he can use them in his creations. I just love how he looks when he is thinking. Here he is checking out his photos, I couldn't resist snapping a pic.

You probably have seen most of these before, but well I honestly don't have any new material. These are just some of my favs.

I will tell you that I am planning a one off vlog to show you around our new house when we pick up the keys next week so stay tuned. And I shall break out the camera again soon I promise. Christmas holidays are coming up soon and I will need to occupy myself for 7 weeks while David has to work.

Very Confronting

It's Happening

There will be no more domestics next door
No more Celine Dion played
No more singing from over the fence
No more trucks driving by at all hours of the night
No more mould and mildew
No more surrounded by old and nasty

why?

Because we are moving here.....

It's a brand new home

4 bedroom

dishwasher

Open plan, split level

Main bedroom have walk in robe, ensuite and private balcony

And the peaceful view from the main deck out the back of the house is to die for.

No one has ever lived in this house.

I can put my pictures on the walls.

It's 5 mins to the beach.

I'm so happy right now.  God willing we should be in there fully by the end of October.  

I can see myself spending a lot of time out on that deck in the peaceful quite. 

Bliss

Note: the pictures aren't mine I got them off the net...I will post better ones once we have moved in :)

New Things

In keeping with my "perfect little housewife" theme, I have been trying new things. Yesterday I did Jamie Oliver's "6 hour slow cooked pork roast", which was perfect if I do say so myself. I've never cooked a pork roast before so I was rather surprised that this recipe seems fool proof. I suggest you go Google it and try it, because it is amazing!

Today I baked bread. In fact as I am typing I am enjoying one of the cheese, bacon and tomato pesto bread rolls I just pulled out of the oven. I have never made them before, but I am getting pretty good at looking up recipes online and trying them out. I must say they taste amazing!




This is what they looked like before.




And this is after! And oh my Lordy do they taste good. Should get the thumbs up from hubby. Maybe tomorrow I will make a cheese and bacon scroll. It can't be that hard right?

Perfect Little Housewife

What to do today?
Pretty sure I'm the perfect little housewife, while I'm on holidays anyway.

Yesterday I washed dooners and sheets, towels, and clothes. I took my car to the carwash, although I didn't have to do much but sit there while the carwash attacked my car. I went to the shops and bought David some new socks and pluggers (things, flip flops, wherever in the world you are), and a Bocci set, which he has wanted for ages and is determined to take me to a park to play today. I also bought a coffee table and started my spring clean on the lounge room....oh and also cooked dinner and made these perfect scones!








Today, I think I will finish the lounge, do the floors, clean the bathroom and start on the folding in my room.

Then, when my pay comes through I will go to the shops and get some stuff for a picnic for our Bocci date. David finishes early on Wednesday's so he should be home by 3pm.

I even have a pork roast to put on...if it is defrosted in time, if not I will cook it tomorrow.

I like this not working thing, I could get used to this! Pity that if I don't work I don't get paid, that part kinda sucks, while I work i get paid for my holidays! Bring on babies and maternity leave pay!

Bubble Pop

Ever played that bubble pop game? Because I have. More specifically there is a version for iPad that has a "chill out" mode. Basically you just keep going....and going...and going. How this could possibly chill anyone out I have no idea. Personally I find that it pisses me off. I mean it just keeps going. There is no end to it. There is no " yay I beat my high score", just going and going....and going.

So I try to make it a little more interesting right....wrong...it ticks me off even more. See I had this idea that it would be really cool to challenge myself to fill the board with just one colour. Pretty cool idea if you ask me. However, every time I try....this happens!




Do you see that?! "what are you too good for your home you little loser red, blue and yellow bubbles! Green is way better than you because green has friends!"

Problem Is that if I pop some of the green ones....well they all go and I have to start again, and I have started again so many times with the exact same outcome.

Stop playing if it pisses me off so much you say? Well I could do that, but then again I could take a pencil and stick it in my eye, and I'm not about to do that. I'm stubborn enough to keep trying. Maybe one day I will get it. Until then I will continue with my "hate the world" attitude until those stupid little bubbles learn their place, "what are you too good for your home?"

That is all.

Holidays

I love holidays. It's that time when I get to catch up on everything I have no time for during the school term, like spring cleaning.

There is something about spring that makes me want to have everything beautiful. Winter is kind of depressing with everything locked up, and this year it was an overcast and wet winter...which is very unusual for the Capricorn Coast. Now it is bright and sunshiny and makes me happy. All of the windows are open and every day I am doing a little bit here and there (don't want to be cranky when the hubby gets home cause I'm all tired and stinky from washing walls and cupboards etc).

So right now on day 2 of my holidays, my kitchen is fantastically spotless. I wish I could say the same for the lounge room, but I can't. Maybe tomorrow I will, but probably not because today I'm going to wash donors and sheets and probably put away those clean clothes that have been sitiing in a basket on the floor of our room for....oh so long.

It's times like this I am glad I don't have kids yet, because I'm so not organized enough for them yet. Will have to get organized pretty quickly 1. Because we are moving in a month or two, and 2. Because husband has finally agreed to start a family next year now that he has full time work and a stable job, squeeeeeeeeee. God willing by this time next year I should be just about ready to pop...or already popped if the kid turns out to be just as impatient as me.

Now I'm off that little tangent, as for the rest of my holidays, well there is studying for my exam, and more spring cleaning, starting to pack to make the move easier. I'm going to go get my nails done with my cousin at some point this week, and I might just go shopping today after the washing is done. I know you are all jelous right now :) and are probably thinking of all the wicked come backs generally thrown at teachers because of the amount of paid holidays we get eve year. Tell you something though, we deserve every one of them. I'm so tired at the end of term I generally spend the first week just recovering (I'm surprised I have the energy I do have this this holidays). I generally get sick in the first week of holidays, the whole running on adrenalin thing is very real for teachers. Luckily I'm just a little sniffly.

Maybe it was how well term 3 ended this year. A lot happened this term and I was so drained, but it all ended well (that's another post entirely...one I promise I will write as soon as I know how). Maybe things are easier this year cause I have a husband and best friend to come home to every night and debrief so I'm not bottling things up as I tend to do. Whatever it is I'm just glad that I have enough energy to actually enjoy my holidays this term.

A Happier Update

Apart from the last post life is pretty good. I was pretty stressed for a while because David so desperately wanted to move home. He hasn't adjusted so well to life in the Beef Capital, but then again it isn't exactly my favorite place either. This, however, is where we are at this point in time and whilst it isn't forever, it isn't such a bad life.

I have spent the majority of this school term looking for work back home. I promised David I would, so I did. Even had a few phone interviews and lots of interest. Apparently I'm "hot property". As much as I wanted David to be happy, it just didn't feel right at this point in time to move home. But he is my world and so must come first. Jobs come and go, but family is forever.

I guess God had other plans for us, because He has provided the means by which David is happy to stay, and the pressure is now off me to find work (it is easier for me to find full time work being a teacher). My wonderful, most beautiful Aunty made it possible for David to have a job interview for a Dock job (logistics), and the powers that be really liked David. He now has a full time job at Yeppoon by the beach working week days until about 5pm and every weekend off!

This is just perfect for us. David hasn't had a full time job before. Don't get me wrong, he is an extremely hard worker and has worked full time hours (and the rest, 70 hour weeks were not conducive to a happy married life), but has always been classed as a "sub contractor" with the "pain in the arse" job of taking care of his own tax and super, and no paid holidays!

Now we finally both have full time jobs which means that we can start thinking about a family within the next year! I'm a little excited about that. But more so I'm excited that he is happy. He is working with people, not just on his own in a taxi, so he can make friends. He isn't working all hours of the night, I get to see him every night and every weekend! And to top it off, when the lease runs out on the place we are in, we will be moving out to the beach, I can dig that!

It feels as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and it is so nice to hear the confidence back in his voice, and his willingness to start a family now he feels he can provide for us.

A big THANK YOU to Aunty Chris who got him the interview, I know he had to get the job on his own merrits, but you were instrumental to getting him there, we will be forever greatful!

I love the fact that I don't have to leave a job and kids that I love, and I'm looking forward to what next year will bring (especially the whole trying for a baby thing).

The Things That Cannot be Said

I haven't updated in a while because the only thing I have had to talk about I'm not allowed to talk about at this moment in time. It is extremely frustrating because all I want to do is yell and scream and stomp my feet like a little kid, but I can't. I have to be a grown up, I have to keep my cool until the situation is dealt with, and it isn't my place to deal with it.

It made me feel sick, it has given me migraines and stomach cramps, a real kick in the guts. Worse still is that every day I have to smile and nod while inside I'm writhing and angry, frustrated and about ready to crack it and wring someone's neck. I don't of course, everything on the outside is cool, calm and collected. I'm a professional after all, professionals don't just wring someone's neck.

On the up side is that those who can deal with it are well aware and are in the process of fixing it. Meanwhile I go slowly insane, driven mad by the frustration I feel at my situation.

I long for the day I can get it all out. Not the people involved of course, but the situation. I can't wait for the day when I can happily blog about it and vent to the world.

I have known about this for a while now, so I have had some time to process, but that unfortunately puts me very much in the "angry" phase. It takes all of my strength not to crack it on a daily basis.

Smile, nod and don't make eye contact. That is my mantra. Smile, nod and don't make eye contact.

In other news I now have an iPad, which I'm typing this on right now. I can happily say that I am madly in love with this piece of technology. It also has a pink cover which is a nice happy colour that I need right now.

David got a full time job which is very exciting, and because of his new job we are moving to the beach in November/December. Ocean views here we come!



This is my cat, Cow. He was fast asleep and let me take several pictures. It made me chuckle, which I needed. So now you can chuckle too.